Such is life........

I have been wondering recently what things happen. You go through life as a child without a care in the world, well except I guess for school and stuff, and then in a flash its all over. You have to be a big kid. You have to get a job and be responsible and shit. In the end it gets old really quickly. As of late I have gone through some up and downs but overall it seems that things have worked out for the best, or atleast as good as they can be for now. Sometimes though you have to think about all that shit that rolls down hill. I have tried really hard lately to make the best of situations and to be a better person. I have really motivated myself to try harder at work and in my life, but still things seem to become all jacked up. I recently got Employee of the Quarter at work and i feel that i am acheiving the goals i have set for myself. Hopefully in the near future i will be moving on to bigger and better things here at Southwest. But life seems to still be all that much harder. Im working out but its taxing on me. I have also been trying to be more social since that seems to be alot of my root problem but it still is not necessarily working. Relationships are not easy and the one that I had been trying to make work seems to have fizzled before it even started. I dont know what to do at this point. I know things will get better but i guess i have alot of hard choices ahead of me. For the most part I guess this is what people go through on a normal basis. I have always been the one with a level head that friends come to talk to but it seems that lately im the one that is all off kilter. Can the world truly change that quickly around me or is it just me that is changing? Answers will come soon enough i guess.......