Saturday, August 21, 2010

Keeping things alive.....

So, its been a while, but i guess its good because time seems to fly. I have been thinking lately that it is difficult to work in a world that is not perfect. While I know that this isnt a surprise, its just how life works. Why is it that when you try to do things which you believe to be good they come back to bite you in the ass. Its just seems that everything that I do is scrutinized to the most finite level and if there is just one thing out of place, then I am fucked. In some peoples eyes, they see this as a good thing....How so? You might ask. Well they believe that when someone is watched so closely its because they are being groomed, or pruned or whatever. In my mind its all bullshit. The way they see it is that if you are making mistakes then you are hurting their credibility. They begin to develope a "perception" about you. I hate the word perception. Its stupid, and its all subjective due to the fact that people basically assume, and we all know what assuming does. What they dont realize is that perceptions run both ways, its not just a trickle down effect. Nonetheless, I cant change how people are. I just need to figure out how to keep my head down and my mouth shut. I doubt it will happen but oh well......